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to live as a tiger.

This is why I would rather live as a tiger than a sheep.

Sheep are cute and fuzzy, but they are not independent or intelligent. They most frequently act from a place of fear and confusion, depending on a smarter species for direction and protection. I do find their skins and hair quite cozy. I also think their babies are delectable.

Tigers are noble, independent, and formidable creatures.

They are fierce and dangerous, but generally only hurt people when they themselves are weak or sick.

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trying to hard vs. giving up too easy

I just read an intersting article that one of my fave yoga teachers I had in Thailand posted as a link on her FB.
Here's the article.

I was really enjoying it - seemed to make some really salient points and have a good mix of humor & directness... then I got to the end. 

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a little more Gurumayi...

Read a bit more Gurumayi in the second half hour of my lunch today and I particularly liked this quote:

"This is one of the practices: constantly little by little, becoming more honest with ourselves.  It night not be possible to become honest overnight -- we ware so used to ducking, so used to getting out of things, so used to not confronting ourselves.  We make many excuses, we have many alibis.  However, the practices of the spiritual path bring everything out into the open.  When something is right before our eyes, we have to confront it.  If we deny it, it will stick to us anyway, because it will prevent the inner experience from taking place, and we will not be able to see the divine Light... As long as we have had no experience, we cannot shake off either good or evil."


Last night I taught a 2-hour restorative yoga workshop to my wonderful Thelemic Yoga students. I rent the space at my yoga studio from time to time to offer private 2 hour retreats to my OTO body members & like-minded friends. In between, we have a 1 hour weekly class at the local body. Usually, I hold the 2 hour retreats on Saturday afternoons, opening with pranayama and meditation, moving into active hatha yoga, breaking in silence, returning for partner therapeutic yoga & ending with some restorative yoga and mantra.
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Jul. 5th, 2011

What a lovely weekend it turned out to be!  Great weather, delicious food, and lots of relaxation.  Even managed to complete a surprise sewing project. I was saving Sunday night and Monday for some sewing I arranged to do for a Coph Nian in need of a new black robe and trim on a vestment.  Sunday after mass, I got my sewing machine all set up, popped the black robe fabric in the wash to preshrink and set to sewing on about 20 feet of trim.  Unfortunately, the ribbon she bought for me turned out to be that craft ribbon with wire edges to shape it.  Great for elaborate gift-wrapping.  Not so good for priestess garb.  By the time I'd gotten everything set up, I was really in the mood to sew & test out my new machine.  I'm taking care of a friend's Janome sewing machine for a long-term loan, since she moved to PDX.  It's a really nice machine, but she didn't have the manual when she left it with me; so it's been an interesting process of getting to know it's quirks by trial and error. 

With the creative spark lit, I set out to find a project I could do with my small stash of fabric.  I decided on a vestment for DRJ. 

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Apr. 18th, 2011

"Lift up thyself! for there is none like unto thee among men or among Gods! Lift up thyself, o my prophet, thy stature shall surpass the stars. They shall worship thy name, foursquare, mystic, wonderful, the number of the man; and the name of thy house 418"
Liber AL II:78

"Blessed, blessed, blessed; yea, blessed; thrice and four times blessed is he that hath attained to look upon thy face. For I will hurl thee forth from my presence as a whirling thunderbolt to guard the ways, and whom thou smitest shall be smitten indeed. And whom thou lovest shall be loved indeed. And whether by smiting or by love thou workest, each one shall see my face, a glimmer through a thousand veils. And they shall rise up from love's sleep or death's, and gird themselves with a girdle of snake-skin for wisdom, and they shall wear the white tunic of purity, and the apron of flaming orange for will, and over their shoulders shall they cast the panther's skin of courage. And they shall wear the nemyss of secrecy and the ateph crown of truth. And on their feet shall they put sandals made of the skin of beasts, that they may trample upon all they were, yet also that its toughness shall support them, and protect their feet, as they pass upon the mystical way that lieth through the pylons. And upon their breasts shall be the Rose and Cross of light and life, and in their hands the hermit's staff and lamp. Thus shall they set out upon the never-ending journey, each step of which is an unutterable reward."
-Liber 418, Cry of the First Aethyr.


I was just reading a bit on Guenon and Sufism and I found this article that's was unfolding to be really interesting to me... then I read pg. 7!

Guenon's follower Frithjof Schuon moved to Bloomington, Indiana in 1981 and started a Sufi community there.  He died in 1998.

I went to graduate school in Bloomington Indiana from 2003-2005.  About two months after I moved there, I connected with a large Turkish community through which I studied with an amazing network of Sufis there - all in homes and private retreats.  We were involved in the general mosque, but held many smaller meetings in private residences for more in-depth study and practice, including retreats.  (Once we even rented an Amish camp for a retreat on Thanksgiving vacation.)  We also occasionally interacted with a group of "non-denominational' Sufis that were way out in the woods outside Bloomington, near Lake Lemon & rented a retreat space near them one summer.  They were an odd group, but very intriguing and devout.

I certainly never heard mention of Schuon by name... but I'm quite certain Bloomington still bore traces of this underground community of a "house where friends could come and pray," (footnote 73)

Bloomington is really quite a remarkable place.  Their Lilly Library also held my first significant interaction with Crowley, when I had the opportunity to see an original artist book copy of Liber LXV, letter-press printed and bound in brilliant yellow cloth, nestled in its own beautiful yellow box.

How odd and fascinating the way that life is sometimes so seemingly serendipitous.

Rilke for a lullaby.

As once the winged energy of delight
carried you over childhood's dark abysses,
now beyond your own life build the great
arch of unimagined bridges.

Wonders happen if we can succeed
in passing through the harshest danger;
but only in a bright and purely granted
achievement can we realize the wonder.

To work with Things in the indescribable
relationship is not too hard for us;
the pattern grows more intricate and subtle,
and being swept along is not enough.

Take your practiced powers and stretch them out
until they span the chasm between two
contradictions...For the god
wants to know himself in you.
-Rainer Maria Rilke
Yesterday I made a proper book for the first time since coming home from Asia.
In the process, I pulled out my first magical diary to look at the process of how I made it... and of course I happened to read some of it.  It was so rich with content, even though the organization was not as strict as I've since learned from David. 

I just tried to post twice on LJ just now to develop an idea that I've been writing about in my current magical record and twice LJ crashed right at the moment of posting and I only got back a husk of my draft each time... I think that LJ getting hacked and failing to function, in concert with my delightful experience of making a book again & the reexamination of my earliest magical records... is a good sign to go back to pen and paper for a while.  

"The Nath yogis, with their roots in the tantric milieu of medieval North India, are the instigators of hatha yoga. Their ultimate goal is the transmutation of sexual fluids into the elixir of immortality. The masters of this yoga are siddhas, the possessors of siddhis, the occult powers that culminate in deification. Scholars have noticed the importance of the occult and magic among the Naths, but these categories are rarely given appropriate theoretical considerations. The academic study of esotericism, conversely, directly engages the occult but often restricts itself to Western traditions. This study argues that there are advantages in applying the conceptual vocabulary and theoretical conclusions of esoteric studies to the scholarship on tantra and yoga. The model of esotericism is applied to the Nath yogis through a threefold thematic division of the subject matter: their understanding of body and sexuality, speech and rhetoric, and mind and ideology. Yoga is comparable to magic understood as a quest for power, based on the cultivated imagination and the principle of unions. The study concludes by suggesting that esotericism should be seen as a cross-cultural phenomenon."

Happy Friday!  This just arrived from ILL for me today... looks like I will have a fun weekend read.

It's a very exciting treat for me to get to read scholarly work on Indian Tantra by a Thelemite!